I am so FRUSTRATED! I effing had the guts to go and talk to a big hairy frightening man who was very tall and imposing, but I dont seem to have the guts to talk to him, even if I really really need to. Its like... gah... GAH... I dont even know how to explain it. I dont understand why I cant do this, I dont know what is keeping me from doing this very important thing. I dont know. All I know is that I cant. What is so wrong with a "hey, hi, how are you? nice day. I have a problem." What is wrong with that?!?!?? Nothing that I can see? What could possibly possess me to be tongue tied about this? I am not scared of him! I am not. I am not. Dont you dare think I am because I'm not. Why should I be scared? There is nothing to be afraid of. NOTHING! SO WHY... AM I DOING THIS?! Dear God, Why? Thats all I ask. All I want to know is why, and then after you have answered my question you can go on with you know... whatever God does. And life will be ok. Ok? I am not scared.