mom just told me she wants to leave us. she said whats the use. i think its me. i think i make her miserable. that i should leave. i have no where to go.gawd. i wish i could have a real family. i mean yeah we are the typical christian family, but my dad is depressed which makes my mom depressed, which they take the stress out on me.and i hate that.ugh.im the bad child of the family mom sais....cus i speak my mind when i think i need to speak it. some people say its a good thing to speak ur mind, but im learning that it just gets me into worse situations when im trying to help....so either way im screwed....ooooh lucky me.......so i guess i need to change. i dont want peoples lives to be miserable just because the way my personality is....well i forgot what my point was to this entry but yeah.....well i saw CJ today.he was walking by at the college when i was at the stop sign and he said hi. i should see him tomarrow so we'll see what happens..i think we are going to hang out with Joe tomarrow.but i dunno. i dunno much of anything anymore. im just going with the flow. i did it again. i took the last two of em. they hit me hard again this time. i feel like thats the only thing that makes the pain go away. its like cutting...but minus the scars. im not taking anymore though. i promise.so dont worry about me out there please.there is no need.im done.really done. im out Krystal