hey....today sucked.....i hate these days... if i just died right here would anyone care? im not sure they would. im not sure about anything anymore. life sucks. im invisible or something. well ive thought a lot about it and i think that im ready to write it in here...i dunno how long ill have this entry up because i might delete it but here goes...i cant keep this all inside any longer. alright heres what happened... about a month ago, me and a friend were at this club called static and it got boring for a while and so we decided to go out for a walk for a while and come back later. well we were down the street and all of a sudden this car full of guys pull up. they were new in town and asked us to show them around. i really didnt want to go, but my friend told me to come...she practically begged me to come. so i get in the car. i was in the back seat between two guys and she was in the front on another guys lap. about 30 minutes later, he pulls over and wants me in the front and her in the back. so being dumb me i went in the front. she got in the back. she was talking to the guys in the back and i was with the other guy in the front. he was drunk and driving and looking at me all at the same time. he started touching me in places that mase me uncomfortable.he forced himself on me too...i was so freaked out and my friend was clueless because she left me there when that happened.then we all went back to the club. wow i dont know if i want to write any more....my friend left to the bathroom for a while and left me there with these drunk guys...not smart...and she didnt come back for a while... well things happened and he started touching me and i kept telling him to stop. he wouldnt.he was far from stopping.he ripped part of my shirt.he was like practically on top of me and was taking my clothes off..i was freaking out..and a lot happened against what i wanted but he refused to leave me alone. so i told him that i had to go to the bathroom and he grabbed me. i jerked away from him and left. i found security and they kicked them out.then all of a sudden the next week comes around and his brother that was with him that night showed up at school. he was hanging around my friends and he kept telling me things about how his brother misses me and was going to find me....then a week later he was nowhere to be seen. ive had nightmares from all that happened. my friend doesnt know the whole story. she just knows part of it. i wish i could tell someone but i cant. i dont know what to do.was it my fault? i dont understand.i havent been the same since this has happened to me.im not sure what to do.