a lot of shit has happened. i guess i should start from the beginning. thursday night, me and my parents and my uncle brian get into a huge arguement..and i get kicked to the streets for "disrespecting" them...so i went to salinas house for the night..because i had nowhere else to go. then i called jose..and he tells me i can move in with him, but not until friday because he wont be down. so friday rolls around..and i get a call from his cousin..he was hitting on me and stuff..and tells me to just "forget about jose"..and i just told him to put him on the phone. well.........jose gets on the phone saying how he doesnt think it will be a good idea if i still move in with him. and this is where he spills out and tells me that becca has been living with him for the past week, and he thinks that he would rather be with her than me because of "financial" reasons...and he went on saying how he doesnt want to hurt either of us..and all kinds of bullshit..and i was crying by this time..and he was still going on about reasons why he wants to be with her instead of me....and all of a sudden he was all "well the sex was good at least"...and thats when i blew up on him about how he never cared about me and just used me..and then i hung up on him. ::this is the last time im letting myself get hurt by him..i deserve better..but the thing is, from past experiences, ive been letting him come back because of how he says that hes changed and shit, but not this time. im done.::....but yeah..this was all friday night that all of this happened on..and i was still homeless..so me and salina went to jerrys for a while..i was still crying at the time. and then we decided to go to her house and drink. i decided to go home on saturday..because i had nowhere else to go. so im home now. ive had a pretty emotional weekend. oh and last night, me and my mom got into another fight..she was making fun of me because i cant keep a job for more than 3 months..and she started up saying how no guy wants me and im ugly, and she called me a druggy. which i think is bullshit, because ive never done any drugs in my life. she was talking a lot of shit. and then i told her that i think shes a horrible mother. and things just went down from there. she said a lot of hurtfull shit to me. im so over her shit. a good mom wouldnt tell her child that they are ugly and that they arent going nowhere in life. i really need to get out of this house. i have nowhere to go though. so that makes it hard. well i dont wanna write a novel or anything, so im going to end here i hope this week goes a lot better than last week did. Krystal