hmm, im getting a bad feeling about this. he's being especially distant online today, and he just said brb + an excuse he used before. hahaha. but last time he was gone for ever and signed off. it sux. im so annoyed with him right now. but yeah, so about my bad feeling, im thinking nothing is ever gonna happen at this point. i mean, no way. it's just way too weird now, too much shit to get b/w us. and its over. life is a very nice thing isnt it? barf. so sam and i are going to ventura today, hopefully i might be able to straighten some things out. but who knows. at the moment i seriously doubt it, i bet scoot is gonna be like "ono, i think you missed ur chance. its gone" i seriously dont need this kind of shit right now. i want to die. goodbye.