we've barely spoken since sunday and when we have it's been distance. it's been awkward and silent and distant. i think it's ending i don't feel as if things are the same... nor will they ever be again... so um i think it's gonna end soon if it isn't already over. and this my dears is why i don't trust people because i let myself get attached and i get hurt and then here i am once again but at least i didn't fully love him as i had once loved another nor will i ever love again... i don't think i'm gonna let myself i wish i could though but i doubt it goodnight. and fuck you *ahem*