alright so let's see if there is anything of even remote interest to be talking about... well seeing as my last entry was 5 days ago...and pretty much all i wrote about were the lyrics to my song of thee moment...i have some catching up to do. hmm wednesday i hung out with the caesre and saw v for vendetta--a weird movie but still pretty damn good. then we were bored sitting outside the theatre afterwords so i called up samantha dahling and she paid us a visit at zee mall... after that we hung out and just like walked around and talked, twas fun. i thought caesre was totally bored because all we did was just sit and talk? but actually he thought i was bored with it all. that was funny. i had a good time, caesre is a cool dude. it's so cute because he thinks i'm like...fabulous. lol. his words not mine man. he thought i was really pretty and talkative and entertaining and fabulous, made me feel good to know someone felt that way about me. even if it's someone where we're obviously not going to like...do anything. it was just flattering. even though we don't like eachother like as more than friends, i just love hearing sweet things like how he notices the way i smile and shit. damn his observation-ness... (and i know it's not going anywhere because AHEM he had a date tonight with someone so i don't have to worry about him liking me as more than a friend, or vice versa) it was just a sweet thing and it made me feel better about the fact that apparently brett has been saying shit about me and making fun of me or whatever. when he's the one who dumped me, and told me i was one of his "favorites" or whatever because i was definitely the most "interesting and fascinating" person he's ever gone out with. lol i guess it really pissed him off that caesre went to see a movie with me. silly brett doesn't remember that he has forfeited all rights to give a shit about anything involving me or anyone else. stupid stupid boy. he's becoming a good pal, and it's cool. i need to have more guy friends anyway so this is neat-o. heh mebbe he can help me find a prospective boy for future enjoyment....ha i'm sick... it's kinda sad because he found sam to be a bit annoying. he said she has an attitude problem...which i guess is kinda true...like with me i let him put all these dorky hats on me, and i tried on his huge loser sunglasses and kept them on for a long period of time, because i don't mind looking like a dork sometimes? but sam put the sunglasses on like halfway then pulled them off. and she just sat there quietly, while i was really talkative. heh and he thinks i'm prettier. points for caesre. i did defend her that she was just shy and uncomfortable and she loosens up...but still i gotta admit i didn't mind him saying how great i was. i'm sorry i'm just soooo used to everyone saying how perfect sam is and how wonderful she is and how she should be a model and marcia marcia marcia....so for someone to finally see past the looks and actually notice me was nice. i'm going to enjoy it. so sue me. i just wish more people could see that special something in me, and notice the exact way i smile--and think it's cute. i want someone to find me fascinating and adorable and fabulous, and wanna be with me...i want someone to love me. DAMN MY PASSIONATE HEART----lol. that sounds dumb. but i just mean that when i'm with someone, i kinda let it engulf me into it, and i make it all of me...so i love having that feeling, and i want it back dammit. i ache to have that feeling, and to have someone engulfed in me like i had once before. sigh.... hey it's spring break. yay for me. oooh and i watched reservoir dogs today. i love that movie. steve buscemi is the shit.