wow im sad. i mean truly i was thinking about taking out a switch blade and just stabbing myself on my way to lunch. and i pictured myself lying there with a knife sticking out of my stomach and people walking by not doing anything. some didnt even look down. i hate this, i WANT to cry, and yet i cant. it just gives me a headache, and i just really want o cry. i havent wanted to disappear so much as i do now, and today wasnt even like as horrible a day as it was 2 weeks ago. but omg i wish i could cry right now, it hurts so much not to be able to let it out and cry. im gonna die now........