so um caesre kissed me. ha a few times. more like many... it was nice, the perfect kiss actually, we were in the movie joking around about something and he just pulled me into a kiss, it was great. i'm kinda meh about how i feel though. i mean i really liked kissing him, and i felt great because he doesn't kiss just anyone? in fact he hasn't really kissed someone in like at least 2 years...(he's very pretty woman about it. thinks kissing is too personal, so saves it for when it's special?...and he told me this before he liked me so it's not just a line) but i think he's gonna chicken out and be like um...let's not do that again, it's too awkward, i'm too much of a baby, and i'm all waaah about it and i don't wanna get hurt or some other lame excuse...i dunno. i just don't wanna deal with that? so i'm kind of avoiding. wow i cannot deal with this right now.... and i feel really nauseous(?) not because of the kiss, but because i ran all the way home from the bus stop...and then my feelings are all conflicted which is making my stomach turn on top of it. but it's mostly the running thing. so we kissed. and he's sweet. but he's a chicken. so it's going nowhere i'm sure. UGGGH.