i talked to ryan tonight to clear things up. things are better, they definetly feel better. when i feel drama forming, i push it away. thats good right? i wish things could be solved by themselves, but ive learned that they have to have a little help on your part. and when you have someone to help you along the way its better.. :) this year is going good so far. ive been being myself so much more, ive been being more open and everything. im pretty much just kickin' it til spring time. which i am s o f u c k i n g s t o k e d for! ugh its only monday. tommarow = real world san diego. yesss.. i also realized im not the only one on this site that looks at diaries that are dedicated to "cutting" with pictures of slit wrists and blood find it to be ridicoulous. i mean no ones stopping you, especially from writing about what you feel..but its such a ploy for attention. i know because i used to do it. its a cry for help, but its also childish. what are you trying to accomplish? if your trying to commit suicide by making little gashes on your wrists, or better yet what the girls so in my school this year : there ANKLES, your not going to succeed. and if your doing it over a BOY, and i look at your heading, and it reads Age:14, it makes me sick. you arent anywheres near emotionally stable enough to HAVE a boyfriend let alone cutting your body up for them. but, like i said, write what you feel. no hard feelings. this kid cracks me up, and if your reading this i miss you and im flattered to be your "stand-in" girlfriend? haha Kyle D Bement: *clasps hands in prayer* **** itismorethanwrongformetomissyourightnow. (we were only 15) you let me go like paper airplanes howcaniexplain, that im lost without you around.. you made me stupid