you really never can imagine bag things happening to you until they actually do, holy shit. brendas mom, brenda & me were going to joeys italian ice then taking me home at like 3:15ish, and at the intersection where you can turn right to go up that street on the side of Dollar General or straight theres always backed up traffic, and we were at the red light and it just turned green so we start going about 15 MPH cause this silver vans ass was sticking out in the intersection. it had its brake lights on at first so we slowed down but then it took them off and started moving, so we start going again and before we realized that he really wasnt moving we were 10 feet from the car, brendas mom slammed on the brakes and fucking NOTHING happened, the brakes failed at the very last minute. that was the last thing i remember because we blacked out and i woke up about 20 seconds later to a cloud of smoke and 2 huge white bags in the front seat. unfortunately to say brenda and i werent wearing our seat belts, which i never ever will pull that stunt again, its just something you dont ever think can happen to you. anyway the first thing i noticed after the smoke from the airbags cleared a bit is that i couldnt hear anything, i couldnt hear myself breathing or brenda talking to me. i couldnt hear brendas mom talking, or the cars beeping. i was completely deaf for almost 10 minutes, the scariest 10 minutes of my entire life. i tried to say something to brenda but i couldnt tell if i was even talking. i didnt panic because i thought i was just in shock or something maybe but finally my right ear began to ring and soon i could hear out of that but still not my left one. brendas mom was shaking uncontrollably and her arms were completely stiff, but the first thing she told me to do was put our seat belts on so we didnt get a ticket for that, she had hers on but took it off right after we crashed so she could move a little so i put it back on for her, and brenda had had her leg up on the seat and the air bag hit it so hard that she had all these bruises scattered on her leg. the guy we hit didnt even care that we hit him, he was so fucking nice but so fucking sketchy because he didnt want us to call the cops or anything, but i told brendas mom that we need his info and for brenda to right down his license plate number cause you never know. so after awhile we got out and had to sit on the ground, my neck was really hurting and starting to send pain down my back and my arms were almost completely numb which scared the living shit out me, i got in the ambulance with brenda & her mom but since we dont belong to the same hospital they had to call a different one for me. so i got out and the cop asked me a bunch of questions then flipped out on me because he said we took down the wrong info or some shit, as if i actually needed to be screamed at when i couldnt even lift my neck. so the paramedic dude like got him to leave and said i needed a neck brace and that id needed to be taken on a stretcher cause the back pain sounded like it could be possible spinal injury and i was just like holy shit im trying to stay calm but when im being told that it was so hard, so there i am laying on this board being taped up with a neck brace on and half of endwell/ half of my school is in the street watching this, i wanted to die. i saw brions face and it made me sick cause he turned like totally white and i was just like what if this is worse than i prepared myself for, ahh the lady paramedic was a bitch too but the guy was young and nice and took good care of me in the back :) throughout the ride my oxygen level in my blood or something dropped pretty drastically down to like 68 something and he was like you really should consider the oxygen mask and im scared shitless of that, i dont know why it just scares me so bad and i hadnt even realized i was like gasping for air but hes like alright if it gets any lower youre wearing it, so i guess after i calmed down a bit it started to go back up. but the pain in my neck increased and started to affect my jaw and by this time i couldnt even begin to make a fist and i had to sign some thing stating that i gave them permission to do anything that might be needed to do, also one of the scariest things ive ever had to sign. once we finally got to the ER my daddy rushed in from some place like an hour away cause my mom couldnt make it and that was the first time i had cried since the accident, i had to pee SO BAD and i couldnt move, i was being asked the same questions by almost 12 nurses and then they gave me this long shot of some high powered pain killer to calm me down and it hurt soooo fucking bad. then i got like 7 or 8 x rays and i just have a few little bruises on my neck bones so i have a prescription pain killer and a gym excuse. i was there for almost 3 hours which sucked. the pain killer injection helped for awhile but now its all starting to hurt pretty bad again, brenda and i arent going to school tomorrow cause our doctors forwarned us that were going to be in an immense amount of pain and soreness tomorrow. not looking forward to that very much. luckally im not too afraid to ride in cars like the nurses were saying i would be, i probably wont be driving for a few days though. seriously, dont be stupid and always wear your seat belt!!