last night was cool. went to ashley's with rachel and hung out on the trampoline with these two kids from seton, mike & mike. pretty cool kids. after they left we talked in ashleys room, went downstairs and fell asleep watching chapelle's show. i havent taken my contacs out in awhile so when i woke up from having to pee my usual 4 times a night my eyes were totally stuck shut and it hurt to have to pry them open. i have like none left though and it takes a good week for them to get in so im stuck with these for however long. i dont fucking care. im also never going to get a fucking job. i think ive applied to over 45 places now and do you think i have gotten even one call back? negative. this is just prolonging me not getting my license and the longer its taking the more my dad wants me to wait until september which im not doing and if he could just leave me alone for like 10 minutes it would be the greatest gift ive ever recieved. talk about people being on your ass 24/7? you havent lived until youve lived with him. every. second. its something. and everytime i try to help out i do it wrong. oh yeah! hahah! thats how it is with EVERYONE! hahaha! i tooooottallly forgot that i cant do anything right and im not good for anything other than services to people! WHAT WAS I THINKING! THAT I COULD ACTUALLY DO SOMETHING WITHOUT GETTING INSULTED!! WHAT A CRAZY PERSON I AM SOMETIMES! HEHE!