i fucking love brenda jackson

Listening to: No Doubt - Making Out
Feeling: hungover
disregard the entry before this, i was talking out of my asssss haha. when i'm drunk i go through like 4 stages, there's the beginning when i'm crazy and dancing to any beat i can imagine, then the more i drink i get SUPER chill. like you can't really imagine me sitting there quietly just gazing off loving everything i see and my eyes get super heavy and stuff. then as time goes on and i drink more, i get completely apathetic. i try to think of who i like at the time but i feel nothing, nothing for matt or ANYONE. then i get really angry and i just seperate myself from everyone because i start becoming sober and realize how much i hate myself? so the entry i wrote before this just disregard it. it was my drunk philosophical mind talking. i love brenda more than anyone in this entire world. i felt so bad for brenda though, it was only the second time she had been drunk and she drank way more this time than last time and she got so fucking sick by the end of the night. we were just like passed out on the bathroom floor and she's puking her brains out, but that's what i'm here for. my last stage of drunkness is being motherly, haha. we ended up eating some ramen noodles and passing out in her living room. best sleep ever man. so i better explain what i remember of last night.. which is most of it, it's a little blurry & confused, but i remember having fun. brenda brion lorin and i drank half my bottle of absolut about 15 minutes before emilee age & amy got there and pat brought 2 packs of beer and my cig's. amy age and i went out front and smoked and they drank some beer which is the grossest shit ever, and they were all screaming something about being cold cuz they had no shoes on. flo & bean finally got there, there these two HELLA chill guys from CF, seriously i love them to death. flo and i were like taking care of people and bean was fucking cracking me up, talking about some made up person? like online or something. and i was in the mud room and emilee was gone for awhile but i was so confused about that because i didn't understand why she was just sitting in drew's car, haha. she made me ramen noodles before we passed out though, she's the fucking shit :) amy and i cleaned up the kitchen a bit and after brenda puked we were all getting pretty sober so we just mellowed out and finally everyone went to sleep. i remember i wouldnt let myself go to sleep until i just like died because i was trying to tell lorin to get up at 5 or something, and i woke up at like 7:30 and was freaking out cuz i thought lorin & brion hadnt done the paper route, haha. me and lorin talked like all last night and this morning, she's the best big sister dude. it was really fun overall, i have a fucking huuuge headache today though. i thought my stomach was gonna burn up last night it hurt so badddd. this morning we went to the giant to cash in the beer cans and we got almost a dollar, but the vodka bottle was too big to fit in the thing so we just like left it in the machine, haha. we got some grub at best bagels & took age & amy home, and i just got home and took a quick shower cuz i gotta go to the mall and get a black skirt of some sort and get on back over the b's house :) last night i think i realized i seriously will never ever ever ever for as long as i live find another friend like her. all night and all this morning she kept saying how much she loves me and stuff and we always say it but i dont know, she is the best person in this fucking planet. i love you so so so so so so so so so so so so so so sooooooooo muuuccch! :) edit// i realized a few entries before this with my survey i read the one part wrong, i thought it said have you done these things in the past SIX months, haha. so i had to change a few answers. woo :)
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haha dude i dont know what the fuck id do without youuu

I LOVE YOU BRAH!!!!!
[Anonymous]
haha fuck you, you know i love you, plus you were like away from me all night long n i always hang out with you thats why
[Anonymous]
fun night jenn...we'll do it again sometime :)
[Anonymous]