I have insomnia and it sucks. I want to sleep and dream but instead i stay awake and if i drift off evil creeps in and infects me with its dangerous nightmares in which i will sleep walk because im afraid of the woman with the deformed face..strapped to a plank of wood that is under my bed. childish or what. Tonight has been nasty. I went to see my nan and she is ill again. God bless her soul. She is closer to death than i imagined. But evryone is a walking pile of ashes i supose. I hate the thought of her going, but lets face it there aint nothing i can do. I decided tonight that i am going to take a vow of selebasy (however u spell it) definition: i think to never look at the opposite sex in the sexual way and to never kiss, touch or be intimate with a member of the opposite sex. Its crushing what boys do to us girls isnt it. Actually just a break up with anyone. Suicidalscars xx 'id give anything now, to hear those words from you'