well its 3.22am and im awake once again.I was asleep before but everynight i wake up to his face and it wont go away. I can feel the pain and i can feel the tears. And his face as he screws it up and he looks so angry. I can feel my heart beating with fear and my face dripping with sweat. I feel him griping onto my arms with ever thrust. And i scream and bleed and cry and i know she can hear everything. And then he goes and i lie there motionless...speechless and i crawl away and hide and cry... his face is in my mind all the time. Why wont it go away. why cant i forget this. Im going out now for a run. Im going to run away from all my troubles..run away from him and her...the only sound are my feet softly hitting the ground as i run on a quiet empty road. All of my troubles are being left behind. And for these few hours while i run i feel free. And then i come home and i feel suffocated again.