stop.

otep once said "whut the fuck is happening??.. we have known - privately in the secret places of our collective "civilised" hearts - that there is a dangerous sector our perverted population that targets womyn and children...priests, police, parents, neighbors, teachers, friends, politicians, relatives...but lately, it seems that there is an overflow of this pathetic vermin...that something very dangerous is loose in the world...now, here eye am listening to some educated asshole on teevee preach on and on about the subconscious evolutionary darwinian imperative of me to conquer evey womyn that they see...that its some biological instinct for men to rape, pillage, destroy...that its their nature to be predators...that womyn are the prey...that somehow, all this evil is our fault..." --------- my dad tried to fuck me today....but i just ran and ran...out of my house down the street, to my friends house and just pretended i was passing by. He isnt going to spread this plague anymore i wont let it happen. He emptys me and fills me in with him...i wont allow this shit any longer. my eyes have finally opened to this and he isnt going to get away with it any longer...its been too long now. So long that i began to feel my purpose in life was to be fucked...i was just a toy, a slave to sex, a slave to misery, a slave to lies.
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hey..ive been reading your diary since i started my own diary..so abotu 5 months..and i gotta say you are amazingly strong for what you have gone thru,and still here..i havent gone thru have the stuff youve endured,and i thought my life was hard..i mean..wow..youve really inspired me..you really have..i read your diary,becuz it feels like im not alone..and theres some1 out there that knows what its like to feel the way i do sometimes..-->
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who knows what its like to be depressed..to cut themselves..to be abused by their parent..to try and kill themselves..to just be so sad and alone..but yet your diary has made me become closer to you..by reading it i know a little bit more about your life,which helps me see a little more of waht sort of person you are..you seem like a very sweet,and nice person..who only wants to be loved and treated w/respect..becuz thats how i felt-->
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b4 i started getting help..my dad has abused me for 11 in half years.since i was 5.and now im 16.going on 16 in a half..and he just moved out to get help..but it sucks when your parents treat you like you dont exist.liek you dont deserve to be living.im so sry about everything you have gone thru.and what your dick father has done to you..same w/ your mother.im so sorry.but i just wanted to write you a note..incase u want to talk.-->
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or need some1 to just listen to you pour out your feelings..im always here..i really am..if u ever need to talk about wahtever your feeling..believe me i can relate to almost everything youve felt,or feel,and have gone thru and been put thru..so add me to your friends list on imabouttobreak..so we can get to kno each other even better..that is if you want to..anyways..just wanted to say hey..xoxo-melissa
[Anonymous]
Hey Rach.
I'm So Sorry About Your Dad, But I'm Glad That You've Realized it Has To Stop. You're The Only One Who Can Decide that For You. Only You, Can Help Yourself... or Let Yourself Be Helped.

I Deleted MSN, And I Have AIM Now. Do You Have AIM? I really Hope You Do. I Miss talking To you!

Lost Of Love,
amelia
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