I couldn’t tell you how many times I screamed no but I could tell you about every word he whispered in my ear and every second that it lasted for and I could sing the songs for you that I sung to myself while my eyes were streaming but I couldn’t tell you how many tears I cried. This has got to stop before the little sanity that I have left gets thrown away. god if your there then all I ask of you is some fucking blow. Just some fucking blow. [I cried as my innocence died]