Cant you look at my soul and see that it is screaming inside? its like 20stone sitting upon my tortured mind. No, no, no. Please just stop. Just think of what your doing. If you have ever been raped then you will know that feeling. Feeling like you are being infected with a disease like a lab rat. You are being murdered brutally. And you wake up dead every day just wishing that you werent here. You are always attempting but never suceeding. Your insides are twisting and that cancer is eating away at you. You dont want him to touch you. You dont want him to kiss you or fuck you. But is that the only affection that you have ever known? And howver many layers I may remove He is always there. He is ALWAYS eating away at me. He is always holding his hand over my mouth and I am always pushing him away. He is the dark cloud that hangs over me. Without them I would be a flower. But now I turn to the knife for comfort.