I just... really don't know anymore, I am really hurt right now. My best friend lied to me just because she did not want to hang out with me or she did not want me around.. Some bf i know. I mean I always do things for her. I help her with everything I can and I try to always be there for her and i buy her things... And this is what she does.. I never did anything like this to her.. Can I trust her what do i do now? Do i tell her i know what she did? or do i just forget about it and just go on with life.. I mean it's already over no point in doing anyting about it.. I am so hurt.. I just really want to cry... she must really hate me to do this to me or she must of never liked me she just wanted someone to hang out with till she met some new frieds than she just ditch me.. she never really liked me she was just being nice.. i hate myself what is wrong with me? i thought with amanda comming back i would have a true friend again.. be happy again go out have fun have someone when i needed to talk................... but i was wrong i am always wrong.. no one i have no one.. no one likes me i am a loser.. i hate my self.. i should be happy she stuck around this long.. that she was there up untill now.. but now.. it's ok i have memories.. like everyting els in my life just memories to love and enjoy.. i have no fucture.. i have nothing to offer i tag along that what i have been and always will be and outcast i dont belong anywhere.. i need to just go away.. go away and leave everyone and than they will be happy.. i am just taking up space and a bed.. just a playmate for the older sister and now she dosent even need.. i am nothing nothing at all mom and ashley would be happy without me even ashlkey lied to me about the whole thing they did not wqant me around.. i wish i was nver born than everyone would be ahppy mom would have money ashley would have the band room she always wanted and amanda would not have to deal with me.. i deserve this.. i am nothing but a pain a desereve this.. i hate myself