I took my car today, insted of Tyler taking to work for the day I took it one because today was or still is my only free day off and two because I need to start driving again to get over my anxity.

Funny thing is all my friends are working today or busy so oh well that was pointless, such is my life. Lately I have felt so fucking used by my friends and family and Tyler they all want me to do whatever the fuck they want and when if i say no to anything I'm the bitch? Like just a few moment ago I ran down to the post office and got a coffee I had just got back home and my sister asked me to run down to cvs to get her shit for her cut and I said no and all of a sudden I am a horrible sister for not doing this for her and blah blah blah, I am a horrible friend because I don't want to go to ptwon on friday and to sit there and watch my friend get a new tat for like three hours, I am a bad daughter because i want to go out a night, I guess I am just a shitty person all together. I was or am shitty girlfriend because I didn't want to sit a home every night and watch him paly xbox and said no to having sex, I am a bad pet owner because I don't brush my dog everyday and because I go out and no one is home to watch them, I am just a bad person all together and I don't want to suck people into my shit hole of a life anymore I am going to shut everyone out, This will probably be my last post on here.

Maybe I deserve to be unhappy? Is this the higher power way to teaching me a lesson for all the horrible things I have done? For not being the way i am told to be? I should just get back with Tyler, Stop going out, stay home more and make sure there is always someone home with the dogs, go do all the things i dont want to do just to make everyone else happy. either way I am going to get shit but i will get less shit if i just go back to the way things used to be. Apparenlty if I am happy everyone else is unhappy.

I dont mean for this post to be so down, again this one is moslty me just venting, no one reads this crap anyway so it dosent really matter at all.