I should not bother anymore, that's what I honelsty think. I'm bored out of my fucking mind with life. School work school work school work and every now and than friends get tossed in their. But even when I'm with my friends I get bored sometimes. What is this thing I'm looking for? what fun is their to have? I just don't know... I'm sick of the mall I'm sick of hanging at home and I'm sick of doing nothing... I don't want to party anymore and I haven't in months, drinking is no longer fun and neither are the people, all they want to do is to get trashed it seems. I don't even like being wasted its stupid to me. Idk maybe I just need to be around new people, I still love boyfriend tho don't get me wrong I'm still happy being with him, I just wish he wanted to go out and do things with me sometimes. He never seems to want too anymore. He actually just left to go back home yesterday, I think. Idk I don't really know I haven't talked to him since he left my house yesterday morning. Dispite what I asked of him he never called and never asnwer my calls or texts. Its whatever tho I'm so used to him doing that it dosent even phase me anymore. I know he loves me, but he just does this and idk why and whenever I talk to him about it he gets mad at me so their is no point to bring it up to him. But like I said it dosent even bother me anymore, well it kinda dose but I don't get worried or scared anymore so I don't freakout as much as I used too. But anyway believe it or not my mum and I have been getting along very well and things seem to be getting much better home, things with my sis are still kinda meh but what can ya do? Right?