Its almost six thirty on a tuesday morning and its raining. But its not that cold so its not so bad the rain is just cold. But anyway life is getting better I think. I can't really tell. Tyler and I are back together.... I think I'm happy about it. I know I love him. But I'm still so hurt about what happen. I can't act like it never happen.. As much as he wants that I can't. All I want is everything to go back.. Go back to what it was once like. When we were all friends. When everyone was ok with everyone els. But that's no going to happen. Who knows if it ever will. Idk what I'm going to do. When I am home when its just my sister me and jarrad I honelsty feel like I don't belong there. That is part of the reason why I like having tyler over that and the fact I like being around him. But now even with him there they really make me feel like an outcast in my own house. They don't know how hard it is living there for me. When I come home and they are mad at me and they usually always are I feel like I have to be in my room. Idk I'm going to stop bitching now idk anymore