Have you ever just had one of those days where your just like what the hell am I doing?

I just don't know anymore, I am at a lost here, I am starting to feel like I have lost control again, I can stop whenever I want too, but what if I don't want to stop? I have no reason too. What am I even talking about? You guys don't know. and to be honest you don't need to. These posts are for me not you, I can say or not say whatever I want.

I'm not in any trouble yet, I have my life under control for now. I have a lot of changing and imporving to do but I still have my head above water for now. I just don't know what to do, or where to even start for that matter. I have overcome so much in so little time I just needed a break for it all, just needed to break free for the chains that held me down for so long. Good, bad? Whos to know? Everyone is so judgemental, I don't see why is matters so much.

Who is to say what is right or wrong when is comes to your life? If it makes you happy why dose is matter? Blah, blah, blah.... I'm in one of those moods tonight, I'm just idk, fine I guess. Not happy not sad, just normal. Today was a rough one, things didn't go as I hoped but I still got to spend some girl time with my right handed lady,and got to see my right hand man so everything did end ok, I still think of him, random I know. But I do. Not a day has gone by that I don't, at least I'm not crying over it anymore. He dosen't care, he never did. I need to keep telling myself that.

Moooooving ooonnnn, I am moving on, I need to let myself be happy and let other people into my heart and life, not everyone will be like him. Not everyone will hurt me.