I would love to just get away

Far far far away from this place and everyone, start everything new and fresh, is that even possible? I literally live on a sandbar where everyone knows everyone and nothing is a secret that sandbar is Cape Cod, maybe you have heard of it, maybe your one of those people I can't stand that come down here in the summer and make my life hell. You guys make it impossible to drive anywhere, and a lot of you guys are very rude to us Cape Codders. Yes I totally understand that you guys want to have a "nice" vacation, but is it really necessary to be rude and leave trash all over our beaches?

I have gone on vacation to Florida and a few other places and I was never rude to people working in stores and resturants, While their working I am not and am enjoying myself so the least I can do is a be nice to the person, come on people what ever happen to common courtesy? Please and thank you? Or just a simple smile?

Annnyywwaayyyyyyy....

Still nothing from the B-factor, nothing has changed there. But moving on and onto new things is kinda scary, but like I said in my last post I can't hate all guys that come into my life, just because I have been hurt by past men dosen't mean there all bad. Things have been going well actually with this new one. But I'm moving very very slow, I don't need to be swept off my feet just to be dropped on my ass. But I think I can trust this one.

Funny thing is when I really like someone it's like an istant feeling, from the moment we meet it's like I know, I get this feeling I can't describe, but I felt it with Tyler and the B-factor, from the very first moment we saw one another and spoke and it's not lust or just phyical attraction, its much more then that, I can sense something in them, But then again who knows if I can truly trust that feeling because both of them were NOT good to me, Tyler is much better now and has changed so much, he realizes how horrible he was to me and he dosen't even know why he treated me the way he did, but hes a different man now and for that I am happy, I helped him become a better person, and he is also much happier now, too bad that didn't happen with the B-factor. I feel sorry for him now he will never see how he is. He will never change and he will keep getting into the same realationship issues again and again. Hes so unhappy, and it's sad. If he could just wake up and see things for what they really are he could change and be happy. He is the reason for his unhappiness, he causes all the problmes but he just dosen't realize it. I did my best to help him and be there for him I put up with so much abuse and I feel bad but I just could not handle it anymore. I got so mad and told him exactly how it was and has been for the past three years, and to him none of it happen. I was the crazy one. It's sad, but I can't dwell on it anymore. I am thankful I no longer and in love with that, I didn't deserve what he put me thru and no woman dose. I hope he is nicer to the next woman he meets, I would not wish what he put me thru on my worst emeny.

Go on,

Moving on, I keep on moving on getting a little better each day, I have hope for this one. For the first time in a long time things finally feel right. Lets hope my senses are right this time.