I think I might be bipolar or maybe just depressed I am not totally sure I have bee flying though a wave a emotions all the time latley, happy sad mad happy sad mad it is really strange not how I usually am, hmmmm what is going on with me? I want to wash my hands of Tyler I do not love him anymore but I have noticed with myself that I go for guys who treat me like shit? why? Out of all the relationships i have had only one guy was good to me but he is gone now, and I kinda miss him but I have no way of getting ahold of him, he no longer has a facebook or myspace and I dont have his number anymore, I just wanted to see how he was doing its been about 3 years since I have seen this guy.

Tyler will be gone and out of my life soon and after that we can never speak or see each other again, I will not be able to be firends with him we have too much history together, also he needs to leave because he is fucking up my chances with other people not that I am looking for another relationship, just someone new to spend time with and have fun do different things.

OK THIS WILL BE RANDOM NOW shit in my mind

I want to be alone, I dont want another boyfriend, I dont want to be in love again.

I feel like i am high today i dont know why i dont even do drugs

I cant get this one person out of my mind

My ex from before tyler keeps making new accounts on facebook and harassing me

for wanting to quit smoking i am doing a bad job

guys only want me for sex to bad im not a whore

i need a drink

am i a whore?

i want to throw my phone out the window

stanley my dog is the best thing in my life right now

my skin is breaking out and i feel nasty

I am almost at where i want to be with my body

i am going out tonight after work and having a good time and not giving a shit what anyone else thinks bitches