Some things I just don't understand, It's summer I should be happy, I was better of in school. At lest then I could fake being happy. It's not that I don't want my frineds to know my ture feelings it's just that I don't like showing weakness. And I sometimes put on a act for people because I don't want to drag attetion to myself. Their is so much shit going on in my life right now I just need an escape and my one escape dosent want to be with me.. So what do I got? Nothing.. Work.. and my music.. Thats what im living on right now. Their is no excitment in my life what so ever. And the one people I want to be with more than anyhting in the world right now is treating me like im shit.. After everythihg i did... i need help their is something wrong with me.. in my head.. i really think i need help.. i should not feel like this im not suppose to be the way i am..