I wasn't going to write this down, but, i don't want to dissapoint you. That would be unfair, after all. To be honest, i'm not even entirely sure what is is i wanted to say; i'm feeling something, and since i'm still coming to grips with that idea, i can't yet tell what it is.

I've been given another two week probationary period at work. Apparently, i was already on one. I vaguely remember that. When i go into work, i put on my "All Wrapped Up For Christmas" t-shirt (since they won't order me an up to date one), wipe away any misfortunes i may have experienced prior to that time, and paint across my face an enthustiastic, enormous smile. Then i was up in his office - the one who's worked to gain power over me - and, i think, i made him rather confused. Because, despite my inhuman appearence, i am completely human. I doubt he was prepared for that. I revealed to him the reason i had to have repeated, clear orders, and why i have little initiative - ADHD. I shook as i told. It's always difficult to comprehend any differentation t the norm, unless you can actually see it.

So, i may be kicked out of work because i'm a freak. You're not a freak, he said, but i feel like it. I know what a "freak" is, and, i am a freak. I confessed i don't like talking about it a lot; people view me far too differently. Hey, watch out, he's part retarded.