On the brink of tears again.

You know, it wouldn't be half as bad if there was a reason for it. If i was upset over something, if i was sad because of something. But there just... isn't. So, i can never make it go away.

I got a bit of a scare today; recieved a letter from the sexual health clinic, asking me to phone a health advisor. I did, knowing they were gonna tell me something horrible and terrifying, my hands were shaking and my voice was breaking. But the chick on the phone simply said i'm clear of hepititus B, and reminded me to continue with my vaccination (20th of this month). That was a worry i could've done without!

Right now, i feel like i just wanna shut myself off from everyone and everything. Forget the world for a while. Forget this paranoia. Oh. I don't know.

The tourettes makes it worse. There's one tic where i have to hold my breath until i can release it again. It's very unpleasant.

But, hey, life goes on, this mood's not half as bad as some of the others, and i'm going for a ciggerette.

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But i do need some fucking sleep.