im so lost... so much has happened to me over the past 2 months.so much that hurts, butt yet i fell like ive become... i dunno older. i never had a childhood,, so i cant dream about imagination and not having to care about anything butt to have fun and be happy. thats jsut it im not happy... for a year mi boyfriend was the sun shining down on mi face and mi shining stars at night.. butt the stars faded and i dont see them anymore.. we (he) called it quits on valentines day.. so i sit home alone in the dark.. butt no one sees it... i wont let them. i dont want anyone t to feel sorry for me or anything like that, im not asking them to care.. it would just be nice to have someone to talk to once and a while, i go out almost every night... and i smile butt it wont last.. it neva does.. butt thats mi life... there was one guy who knew everything .. buttt hes .. gone i have a new boyfriend.. butt its kind of weird.. he was always jsut my buddy mi best friend.. we'd flirt butt... i dunno.. its new.. its.. it'll take time to get used to i guesss... mi body is worn.. scars and brusies are jsut like clothing to me.. they cover my body.. butt mi smile still stays.