im so out of it right now... so nick came over today.... well we went through hell to get him here....and got in some trouble.. hopefully noone will snitch on us... im prayin....really.... so ya he came over and we were in mi room for like 3hrs. im worn out. seriously... im hesitant about writing in this diary for the simple fact... that there are ppl who read my diary that are not cool with me... and may telll... butt this is my diary andi hope they can respect that,,, matty is mad at me and called me a whore.. im not gonna fuck him anymore bc i dont want matty to get mad... jeremy was pissed too... seriously.. they jsut left to go and play some b-ball i love ivy.. shes such a sweetheart... shes helped me so much and so has ashley... ashley left thoguh butt shes coming back on saturday night... im waiting for mom to get home so i can eat and leave.. we're gonna go to callicoon and hang out for a litle while then i have to get to work... its all good...