im confused.. i had an ok day... i went to school a little... wahst the word.. *happi* i love my sarah. i havent talked to mi joe yet and it kind of scares me bc i think theres something going on with him... iahve a big secret that only sarah and teh drs. know.. im afraid of it. i wanna tell nick but.. i wanna tell joe.. i want to get it out..buttt noone can know... nick is actually funny.. he doesnt know that i was preg. with his baby once butt i lost it about 6 and 1/2 weeks.... butt i neva told him.. the only one who knows is sarah and i ....a nd of course my diary... i wanna tell mi secrets butt i cant... theyll die with me. wheneva that is.. maybe tomorrow maybe in a year.. i dunno. i luv mi mom and dad and mi bro... he always cheers me up and he doesnt know it... mi buddy dan is havinga hard time... i always loooked up to him.. he neva did drugs and had a good time neva got pressured ...butt now he tells me he's been poppin pills... suicidal.. its breaking me down... i used ta have da hugest crush on him... butt we dont talk except for on the net... and i gto a boy (again) im soo confused.. i keep saying not to trust anyone.. butt i am and its hurting me.. im getting my new cell 2morrow.. thank god i didnt guy that crap.. or iwouldnt have enough money.... i leave im 13 days!!! I LOVE TURTLE