so mi dad is on his way to nick s house.. he's gonna "talk" to him. mi aminals are doing well.. i guess i eman they arent talking to me or anything,butt... mi love life is soo... confusing... i wanna tell joe soemthing butt i dont know if i want it... i guess its the thing to do though.. i dont wanna hurt him.. he;'s better off without me.. he said it himself that he cant talk to me now that we're going out. he has a better time talking to mi friend kristina and mi kristina has the hotz for him... so im gonna tell him to be with her bc i know he likes her. i can see it when they talk.. so im gonna let him go and hope that one day he comes back to me... IF YOU LOVE SOMEONE, SET THEM FREE. IF THEY RETURN IT WAS MEANT TO BE. i guess i just want him to be mi friend again... butt i love the kissez and the hugs and when he holds me.. im safe... butt i dont care about mi happiness... i'll let them be together. i'm meant to be alone. mi girlfriend sarah and i are going on a "romantic" getaway in march. im taking her to wisconsin with me to see mi sister and mi neice and nephew.. we're staying in a resort...:) :) :) i cant wait. i love her.. i scared her today i know..because i was jsut so upset.. i was thinking of doing something.. and she knows that.. thats what hurt her soo... mi dad is yelling.. i wish he would stop.. but he's justrying to protect me from him. mi daddy says i can punch nick *yay* i wanna.. and he's gonna let me... really