i an soo confiused right nhow.. i dunno what im doing... ' i found out cory was with another girl last night... yet he called me 5times,,,, left mesages in my cell.... i went out last night with mi bro and and... matty,tom,alex,meghan,doniie.brooke,ashley,ivy,jerremy,tj and a few other ppl... it was a lot of fun.. seriously i have a (thing)for one of my brothers friends.. .butt he has a girl.. i mean were buddies... we hung otu all day today ..he is workign with me... it was a lot of fun.. butt i dont think he likes me as anything more then a friends.. or his best friends sister.... it doeesnt bother me that he doesnt like me.. i just am soo tired of everhyone callnig me his little sister... i dont think i could dat any of my bros. friends anyway... id ruin their lives... jsut like i did with nick and he has a girlfriend.... butt he asked me to get this girls #.... i love this girl... shes a good friend... and an awesome persion... he deserves someone loke her theres also matt webb... hes pretty cool..a nd he can keep a conversation gonig.. thats nto bad... and he seems to actually care.... his hair is cool too.. now all he needs to do is grow it out.... *hehe( hes also a senior butt he doesnt have a car... i dont want to sound rude... butt u need a car for transportation... se we can hang.... no i dont have a car yet... nufortuantly... i wish i did... im trying to type without lookn at the keyboard... its hard butt im getting there... honestly.. i havent really thought much about nick since i gave him the note... its ok.. when im seriously lonely/upset... then of course i think of him... butt i dunno i guess ive gotten over it,... cory is more or less/// i duunno.. im not madly in lvoe with him..and we probably wont work out... butt hes there right nwo and thats what i realyl want.. hes not much for listening... butt hes there for hugs and kisses... i dont wanna have sex... not with him anyway... i dont care... w3hatever works.. thsi is prob. a really long entry.. sorry.. tis njto like anyone reads