i understand evwerything now. joe wants otknow why i broke up wit him. there are a few reasons,... but it doesnt mean i dont like you... i dont want you in mi business...all you eva did was talk abou7t nick and try to get me to do things that i didnt want to... its not me and you cant change that. im sticking up i said no its that simple. maybe u need to change,... whilei was in wisconsin i thought a lot and went soul searching, i know where im at in life... im not taking anyone's shit.. i dont think i should have to... ive always pushed my feeling aside fro eveyone elses....well now ijust dont care about myslef anymore.. i used to reallly disike mislef... butt now isjut dont care...its time to live...i met soemone ..butt he's 25...butt he doesnt care. im going to his house 2day... ya he has his own place..so if i eva need to get away...i know where to go... i think he's using me... we'll see... littles 27 year old bro that i made out with a few months ago has been cdalling.... im gonna stay with him fro a little while i guess... butt sshhhh..noone knows... sarah got on mi nerves sometimes... butt i had a good vacation... mi sisiter is gorgous and so are her kids. i miss mi sister... buttt its alright.... i dont care. i have a major league headache...i just changedmy patch and mi cell bill comes to 112.14!! butt whateva its all good... im gonna have fun today... i need that... im gonna call mi darlings (alycia and kristina) soon.. butt we arent leaving until like 4or5 im sure.... i have mi outfit picked out and i have mi shirt for when i go back to school.i ahve 2broken knuckles and a black eye and fat lip butt those are healing.. mi knuckels wont.. buttt its iight..i dont mind.im gonna b ok. im not going out to drink and do drugs.. i dont know.. butt i try to be good..butt i guess im just a rebel. i know i have good days and bad..butt i dwell on the bad.i like being illegal..no i dont like hurting ppl... buttt...whateva....