im so confused and hurting. apparently mi mom is getting kicked out of the house.... mi dad is winning the divorce. it sucks kind of. i have to decide who i wanna live with. uncle chuck is trying to go back into the service. he wants me to support him.. yet he invited me to go to washington DC for a war protest. i am supposed to see nick tomorrow... butti havent talked to him since tuesday.. so im not sure whats going on. we started talkingagain like we used to.. andi understand why he turned to karry and not me.butt it still hurtds.... he finally hit his breaking point and went crazy.. butt i got him back on track.. buttt nowi cant find him..and it sucks bc i got so close to him those 3days on the phone..adn now i havent talked to him in 2days... it hurts so much.. he doesnt get that my heart is aching... butt waht else is new... im trying to b happy.. butt at night.. when ithink of everythin... all iwanna do is get fucked up... and that doesnt solve anything.... whatever. i swear i cant stand this bopolar stuff... i cant control it all the time... im tryingbutt its wearing me out