"You took away everything! I’ll take away your entire frame. I can’t feel anything, I’m here to send you to your death! Your heart will bleed, As mine has since this spring. Till you’re halls are red, Because I won’t back down." - Some track off The Punisher sountrack I don't know if all you people out there find angry music soothing, but it helps here. A lot. Especially in my current situation. When she decided to end it, all I got was a fucking e-mail. Isn't that mighty impersonal? If someone's going to tell me something, then fucking tell me. The true sign of a coward is when they send e-mails and junk like that to people they need to fucking speak to. I admit I've done it in the past, but that's only because I didn't see the person, or didn't have any other way of contacting them. Sending e-mails and shit like that when you can actually talk to the person is a true sign of cowardice. If she's reading this, I'm fucking happy. Might as well let you know what I think of all this bullshit. I've never been a religious person, but I was talking to my dad this morning about all this shit, and he says that somewhere in the book that is the Bible, the Apostle Paul said that a man is better off alone, so he can set his mind towards whatever he pursues without distraction. He also said that if a man cannot control his sexual urges, then he get's into a relationship and marries. I never really followed the Christian way of life, but I think I'm going to take Paul's advice. I'm not going to go chasing after girls, or any of that shit. If I'm acting like a nice guy towards a girl, and they decide to go for me, then sure, I'll go for 'em. So props to my dad for helping me out. I'm also very bored and pissed today, so if I feel like ranting on again, or just venting anger, I'll probably have another entry for you by about 10:00. Or if I'm just really bored, I'll have another entry. But until then...I bid thee adieu I also wanted to add this in. I did a quiz on Quizilla just after this happened, and this is what I got: "Your soul is vengeful. That is the driving feeling you have in your life right now. Someone fooled/betrayed you really bad and now you are after them to make them pay. Your heart and mind has been blackened by your hate for this person and it's on the line obsession. You need to let go, but that is something you just are incapable of doing. Betrayal is something you don't take very lightly and you can easily make new enemies. People often see you as a cold and harsh person who may be in need of anger management, but they don't know what you're going through and can't understand. On the bright side; you don't give up that easy when you've decided to do something. Hopefully you will have your revenge, if it is within reason, and get your honour and dignity back." I just thought I'd add that in. I found another song quote that sounded like it suited me. Here goes: "I've become so numb, I can't feel you there. I've become so tired, So much more aware." - Linkin Park, Numb