Listening to: Standing in the rain - Billy Talent
Feeling: depressed
"Like a shadow in the dark, I am everything, and I am nothing." - Me. I made that up yesterday.
Well, I'm kinda feeling better because I just finished playing Halo where I was ruthlessly killing these big dudes that were hard to kill :) But I'm still depressed nonetheless. Feeling kinda dark too, so yeah. I'll probably be off to the construction field to beat inanimate objects with sticks until I feel better. But oh well. Shit happens, but it's always to me, so don't worry.
I was depressed last night too. I was emptying the dishwasher, and I pulled out this knife, and I kept glancing from the knife to my wrists. But I kept repeating that one line from the code of Bushido:
"The true strength of a Samurai becomes apparent during difficult times."
and I felt kinda better afterwards. But I didn't end up cutting myself...
Well, I'm done here fow now.
Later.
nice journal.
-Angel