4:21 PM Ugh...I've gotta be the biggest fucking moron on the face of the planet. John came home last night and we talked about this whole fucking situation, and he ended it today...right fucking outside. And now I feel like a tool. *sigh*... I can't believe this...I'm a fucking moron. I didn't expect that to happen at all, I was just a little pissed that he did that behind my back. Now I'm a fucking moron. Fuck... I hate myself... 8:40 PM Well, I'm feeling worse than before. I really feel like a fucking moron, and I know that John might've forgiven me, but I doubt it, and I know that Sabrina sure as hell isn't gonna forgive me. 9:01 PM Well, I have been forgiven. I guess I'm feeling somewhat better now, still feel like a fucking moron after that, but oh well. I'm glad this is over.