Hey, come on try a little Nothing is forever There's got to be something better than In the middle But me & Cinderella We put it all together We can drive it home With one headlight She said it's cold It feels like Independence Day And I can't break away from this parade But there's got to be an opening Somewhere here in front of me Through this maze of ugliness and greed And I seen the sun up ahead At the county line bridge Sayin' all there's good and nothingness is dead We'll run until she's out of breath She ran until there's nothin' left She hit the end-it's just her window ledge (chorus) well this place is old It feels just like a beat up truck I turn the engine, but the engine doesn't turn Well it smells of cheap wine & cigarettes This place is always such a mess Sometimes I think I'd like to watch it burn I'm so alone, and I feel just like somebody else Man, I ain't changed, but I know I ain't the same... -the wallflowers, "one headlight" i finally know the awesome song that alek's quote "i turn the engine, but the engine doesn't turn" came from. i used to love that song so much.. _______________________________ well, there is no guy, not really. its just like ever since i sat in that french (spanish?) guy's seat on the plane and hugged HIS blanket and HIS pillow because i missed home and i wanted a lot of things, and the other guy told me my mistake and i was dreadfully embaressed and in a panic started talking to him rapidly in english forgetting that i was still in france, and him saying what sounded like si? si? (i was very confused) and me finally asking him if he spoke english in french and him saying yes, and me telling him i was sorry and him saying it's ok... ever since that embaressing and puzzling minute (was he just messing with me? if he spoke english, why would he need for me to ask him if he did if i was talking in it distressedly? hmm, weird. he wasnt looking at me like 'why are you talking to me', he looked interested in what i had to say, well, whatever), i have been strangely unshy and unashamed, i have been strangely confident, i have been strangely comfortable with the way things are going. strange, isnt it? today is my first day of work. i have roughly 2 and a half hours until i need to be there. i am very nervous. i hope sare gets the job soon. anyway, ill update later... ugh, my dad has been in the shower for 45 minutes or so and I CANT GET IN, and i need to work today while he doesnt, and he is goign to use all the hot water. crap. _____________________________ yeah, well, whatever. if you don't want to than neither do i. i just wish you would stop being so blind, and realize what the future holds. if it is impossible to keep a promise, it doesn't count anymore. not saying its impossible, im saying we were immature and blind when we made it, and its not going to be kept. yeah. whatever.