current favorite picture that i have ever taken: if i were to brighten the picture and zoom in, you would see that out of the shadows on his face, he is looking right at the camera. and the striped background makes the picture look interesting, i just wish that the guitar would have showed up more because it was white and would have went along quite well. current musical obsessions: heart-shaped box by nirvana franz ferdinand getting away with murder by papa roach heart-shaped box by nirvana heart-shaped box by nirvana did i mention heart-shaped box by nirvana? i also like that song that i hear on the point every now and then, but i have no idea what it is called...all i can remember is "here come the roosters..." and the song somebody told me by...the killers? i can't remember. but especially heart-shaped box by nirvana. there is just something about the melody of that song. now...i would like to take a poll. who thinks that i get mad excessively for no reason at all? please vote. and be honest. sometimes it seems like a lot of people don't really understand me. a part of me rejoices at this, and a part of me breaks at this. so i think maybe i should tell, erm, confess some things about myself that people may not know. first of all, i think that you all should hear it from me, whether you care to hear it or not. Trent and I are definitely going to RSHS's homecoming together. As for his highschool's homecoming, I'm really not sure, because it is the night of a wedding that I said I would go to. It is possible though. And I am getting another homecoming dress because I am annoyed with the one from Europe. It fits strangely, and if I go to both homecomings i shall wear my dress from last year to Trent's and the new dress to mine. I guess it isnt too bad, the dress from Germany was only around 30 Euros or so anyway. has anyone ever heard the song "gloomy sunday?" it is a beautiful song that is associated with over 100 deaths, or so ive read. it makes me feel this chill, not goosebumps, but more like a fever chill. im going to go get a blanket. there are two different lyrics that are in english, and they are both very beautiful, but the direct translation of the hungarian words is: It is autumn and the leaves are falling All love has died on earth The wind is weeping with sorrowful tears My heart will never hope for a new spring again My tears and my sorrows are all in vain People are heartless, greedy and wicked... Love has died! The world has come to its end, hope has ceased to have a meaning Cities are being wiped out, shrapnel is making music Meadows are coloured red with human blood There are dead people on the streets everywhere I will say another quiet prayer: People are sinners, Lord, they make mistakes... The world has ended! but im not sure that i want to listen to it ever again, or at least not for a long time, because it is very, VERY haunting, to the point where it makes me too insecure to talk to people. anyways. just thought that song was interesting. one of the english lyrics that has been written to the song is this: Sunday is gloomy, my hours are slumberless Dearest the shadows I live with are numberless Little white flowers will never awaken you Not where the black coach of sorrow has taken you Angels have no thought of ever returning you Would they be angry if I thought of joining you? Gloomy Sunday Gloomy is Sunday, with shadows I spend it all My heart and I have decided to end it all Soon there'll be candles and prayers that are sad I know Let them not weep let them know that I'm glad to go Death is no dream for in Death I'm caressing you With the last breath of my soul I'll be blessing you Gloomy Sunday Dreaming, I was only dreaming I wake and I find you asleep in the deep of my heart here Darling, I hope that my dream never haunted you My heart is telling you how much I wanted you Gloomy Sunday