every person walking this earth is a living, breathing contradiction. me, for example. how am i a contradiction? i am passionate yet apathetic, i have animal instincts yet the thoughts of an intelligent being. i betray no emotions on my face to some, yet i feel deeply. i am prone to flying into a passion if provoked, and i have a tongue which can inflict a poison wound, yet i have never hurt any living thing without regretting it later. I am alive, yet, i do not live, perchance. i spend my life watching other people live theirs, and derriving conclusions from my observations. i can be what some may call a 'wallflower,' yet sometimes i break out of my shell and live a little. i am fifteen, feel like i'm twenty, and act like i'm ten. i read, i write, am fascinated yet disgusted with human accomplishments, and in awe of the natural world. i am logical, skeptical, and supersticious. i am an agnostic with pagan tendencies. i am a cynical optimist, who wants to learn anything and everything, just not maths and chemistry. i'd like to believe in destiny, true love, and the like, although most of the time i don't. i feel as though i should have lived hundreds of years ago, yet i am addicted to new technology. i believe in individuality and freedom of self, yet i can't betray my deepest thoughts without feeling exposed and naked, should they even have words to describe. i am a down to earth, paranoid, thing. i am not a girl, i am not a human, i am not a body, mind, or spirit. i am simply a contradiction with my own thoughts and my own self. i would love to rid myself of all chains that bind me, especially the stupid limits of the human mind. i want to be free. i want to be in everything, and outside of everything. i want to see everything, hear everything, visit everywhere, learn everything. here i am [whatever 'i' is], stripped of clothing, hair, skin, flesh, and bone. what am i then? something extraordinary? no. i am a human female of fifteen years, not even old enough to legally buy a pack of cigarettes. i am not special, and i will forever be bound by the chains that i was born with. the chains of being human. so...how are you a contradiction?