I feel so frozen in this state of mind. Everything will seem perfect for half of my day and then I just totally break down. I start crying non-stop and I have nothing even in my head but confusion. Nothing is setting off these sets of emotions. I don't understand it. It makes me feel blind to my own self. That I can't even see how I feel. Let alone understand it. I look in the mirror and I see myself crying. It makes me cry even more. Why am I crying? Why can't I understand myself? Why are these feelings haunting me? I feel so broken. Just like this song. I feel like I can't be fixed. No one can help me but myself. For a change I think I'm starting to become dependent. I've always been so independent. I always worked things out with myself before I even told anyone, let alone asking them for help. I think it's beginning to affect me. Maybe keeping my feelings inside isn't the best, but when I did do that, I never cried like this. I never did. I feel so abused and so alone. But I'm not. I'm not alone. And I'm not abused either. I wish I could see why I'm crying like this. I wish more than anything that I could understand it. I hate not being able to understand things in general. But not being able to understand myself is the most difficult thing..