I was going to add more last night but I was just really tired and needed some time to think. I don't know. I feel like when I go to high school, I'm not going to be able to do as well as I should. I mean. I know I'm capable of doing well, but I don't know. I just hope I don't slack off and do everything like I'm supposed to. All I want is a scholarship to a REALLY good school. We have exams Friday, Monday, and Tuesday. I think I'm only exempt from two. Oh well though. But enough about school related subjects. I don't really know if I want to go out with Jake anymore. I mean. He's nice and all but I don't know. He's just immature and sometimes he annoys me. I know that he's the same age as I am, but I do agree that girls mature faster than boys do. I don't know. I feel bad sometimes because I tell him I love him but I really don't. I don't know if he really does but I would imagine so. It's just so much different for me because most of the time I'm the one to tell the guy I love him first and he's always unsure if he loves me back. But when it's the other way around and I'm not sure if I love the guy, then it's just hard for me. I'm just not used to change. I don't even know what I'm going to do. I want to stay with him just to see if anything gets better, but if I don't tell him to change then how is he going to know that he's doing any wrong? Maybe I shouldn't lead him on, and just break it off before school ends. Which is only in five days. I don't want to change him. I really don't. And maybe I'm just not right for him. Someone please help me with this.. I just realized that I think I have more online friends than friends in person. Heh. That's pretty sad. But oh well. Just some random fact that I realized. I guess I should be getting to bed. It's late, but I just need time to think over things. Possibly I'm wrong about it all. Night everyone.