Why does he never come online? Has he ever realized how much that I cry when he's not here? I sit here and worry for so long. Just wondering where he is and what he's doing. I didn't even get to tell him Happy Birthday on Monday and now I feel even worse. Jeez. I hate this so much. I hate crying about him almost every single fucking day of my life damnit. I just need to tell him I love him like no other person and I need him more than ever right now..