Well, lately I've been in a pretty good mood. I haven't cried in a few days. Which is good. I think I'm starting to realize some things. Today was different though. I cried for a different reason this time. And I actually knew why I was crying.. I got up at like 2:30 and my back hurt so bad. My dad took my cell phone because his stupid girlfriend has his. So, I couldn't call Mike. That made me pissed off. My back still hurts and I hate it. Damnit. But to top that off. All I can hear is my dad and his girlfriend arguing. For some reason that affects me. It's not the fact that they ARE arguing, it just has this negative effect and it makes me cry. I wish they would just break up or stop arguing and fighting over stupid little things. I'm so sick of it. Mike left a little while ago. Now I feel so freaking alone and I hate it. It seems like sometimes I'm ONLY happy when I talk to him. And then when he leaves I just start crying whether there is a reason for me to cry or not. I don't know. He always makes me so much happier. I love him more than anything. I mean that.