"I love you". Three words I haven't heard from Kate in 2 months. Although I heard these words from her and know she means it, I think it's because the love we shared is still fresh in our hearts and minds. She was honest in telling me she has been trying to move on, Dating. But, just can't find what she's looking for. Although I don't expect her to drop everything and run back to me, and I can understand why she wants to wait it out and see how I'm changing, or rather Coping with my lifelong diagnosis of PTSD. And maybe see just how serious I am when I say "I love you too". And I know I mean it with all absolute and deep meaning, but at the same time I have ignored myself for ao long, that I have a lot of work to do on my life and myself. Quite a ways to go before I'm ready to be there for someone else, but the more I understand myself, the more I understand relationships with others. I am hopefull that someday Kate and I will have a future together. She is an extraordinary woman worthy of extraordinary efforts and an extraordinary life. I am hopefull that as soulmates we will find our own way to be together. "I love you too."