I have the best best friend. My roomie is such a cool guy. No matter what the world has thrown at him, he's come through, and he's still a great guy - he knows he has a future, eventhough he's not sure what it is. It's nice to see a strong person like that. I am actually quite honored to be his friend. He's one of those people that when I am at a loss of what to think or feel, he gives me the piece of mind that I try to give others in their times of need. That is such a special talent/blessing. If everyone had a friend or mentor like this, I think we'd all be in better shape overall and have such a better outlook on life. I can totally tell him what I'm thinking, where I think things are going, and he dosen't have a problem giving me his input and recomendations. Lately, I've been a bit frustrated with where my life is going, and he has been so open to listen, guide, and just tell me what he thinks. It helps that he and I think on the same lines - ;4P. Sometimes I feel like I support so many people, am a big brother to so many folks that no one realizes that I have needs too. I need to vent, I need to question, I need assurance that what I am doing is good and right and that everything is going to be okay. It may sound gay, but even when I've been working out or losing weight he's there with a good word, a nice comment that I look like I've been doing well, and that I'm not the fat blob that I sometimes feel like I am. I know in my head that that is just an insecurity from my childhood, but sometimes the deamons come creeping back and try to get the best of me. Wow! I'm so lucky! Okay, that's all for now.....probably add more entries later today, I'm in a 'writing about myself' kinda mood.