Goddamn that girl!! How stupid can you get?!?!?!? When will she realize that the world is not nice and pretty and shit?!?! I understand wanting to be young and have fun, but fuck, you gotta have people you cna trust when yo do shit like that. Or be alone, and make sure you can take care of yourself - and she can't! I stayed in and got drunk tonight because it really bothered me that she and brandy were going out - I really didn't like brandy to begin with because of what dawn has told me about her. But dawn wanted to go out with her anyhow, knowing that she was going out to hook up. Maybe dawn didn't realize that - she dosen't know or realize that the world isn't nice and good, maybe she couldn't tell from the signs that brandy was going to to find some guy to fuck to make herself feel better. I hope that when this guy that she is with tonight fucks her over that dawn won't be there for her - she needs to learn. She (brandy) needs to know that if you fuck people over, they won't be there when you hit bottom. reference my early entry about coming back to the top. you gotta do that on your own, not in somebody else's bed, or arms, and no on the end of a pipe - crack, pot, or whatever. How can dawn be so stupid as to get caught in a situation like this?!?!? I'm not sure who to be madder at!! Dawn got herself into this, and I hope she learns from it. Brandy broke rule #1 of girls going out - don't leave your partner!!! hell, i've partied harder than either of them can ever imagine, been more fucked up than they could ever dream to be, and i never left my buddy, adn he never left me. Fuck!! STUPID FUCKING BITCHES!!!! They are both old enough to know! I'd expect this out of someone that was like 16, 17, 18, maybe 20, but shit, you oughtta know better by now! How can I ever trust dawn when I'm gone? What if clayton wants 'payment' for the ride home? I hope that my initial assessment of him is wrong. one of the few times i hope i'm wrong. and even if i am, I still won't trust him. what he told me the night we met still rings in my ears. glad i didn't pound him when i wanted to.....but now he knows she's single and out and partying. THAT means that the rest of victoria county - read - all of dawns exes and the guys that she used to date - know too. She'll have guys all over her when she goes out now. Maybe this also means that she and brandy cna't work together anymore. that'd mean that she'll quit her job. maybe that'll mean that she'll come stay with me!! lol, i know that that'd be wrong, but damn, i want that girl with me. on the other hand, if she'll do this with brandy, then what's she gonna do when I'm gone for a month or more on a job and she wants to go out? damnit! I wish she'd grown up and see that things are hard and mean in the real world. she thinks that because she dealt with tough time when she was younger, she knows the world. she wasn't old enought to see it all. Yeah, she dealt with some really crappy stuff, but she dosen't know all about life. I'm not saying I do, but I sure as shit know more than she does, and probably more than most 40 and 50 year olds. GODDAMNIT!!! how can you be so nieve, so stupid at 23? I guess 23 is still really young, i was blind to a lot of things back then too. I dunno, I hope it all works out.