What a weekend! Friday, I took off early to go to my ex's (I think I'm gonna call her my friend down south) brother's graduation. Graduation was VERY cool. I am so proud of that boy. He's a really great guy. I (FINALLY) got to meet englishsongbird - that was so very cool! I think she was kinda excited to meet me. LOL. And JD is SUCH a beautiful baby boy - wow. Anyhow, after graduation, we went back to the house, and a lot of family came over. It was very cool. I get along so well with her family, and her grandpa and I talked for hours it seems about being a law enforcement officer, gun control, and what have you. It was very nice. Her borther broke out the guitar and make me sing with him playing. Later, her dad and I took out some verses that I wrote and he put music to it....I think it was pretty cool. Not my best song, but he made it sound really good. I think that I am going to go karoke this weekend. I really miss singing, and although I don't think I'm all that, everybody else says its good, and I love doing it - I only sing from my heart, and it is such a release. Anyhow, since her brother was going to project graduation, her mom made me sleep in her room, on the floor, next to her bad. It was, I must admit, kinda wierd. But it also made me feel really good, that she (her mom)trusted me (us) to handle a situation like that. Eventhough we aren't 'together' anymore, that dosen't change the fact that I think she is really sexy, and I am very drawn to her on a really deep, primal, lol, reproductive level. Anyhow, enough about that. The next morning (Saturday,) we all got up and got moving. My friend and I kinda got at it, arguing. Finally I sat her down and told her what I thought - this was against my better judgement. I told her what I thought and what I wanted, and what I thought about her and where things were heading. I was scared to have this talk, and almost just left, not having it, but I decided that I owed it to her. Well, long story short, we ended up crying a lot, holding a lot, and decided that things were gonna be cool between us. I'm really glad we got that ironed out. We ended up going to Corpus Christy ( I know that it's spelled wrong.) We went to a Texas Country throw down. There were a BUNCH of bands there. We had a total blast! It was so nice to hang out wiht her. The music was awesome, and we met a DJ from a radio station back home. VERY good times!!! God, I miss her! I think that a lot of the problems that I've had with us - since I've moved to Houston - is that we don't see one another and don't go out. I know that I said where I live - oh well. Anyhow, it was really nice to be with her all day. I think that if she were here with me all the time, things would be okay. I miss her so. I know that we are both going on with our lives, and that kinda hurts, but she isn't doing anything I'm not, so I can't complain. But that dosen't make it any easier. I cannot ask her to stop her life, or not hang out with her friends......that'd just be wrong. Anyhow, enough of the mushy stuff. We left the show a bit early to head home or find a hotel room, not realizing that it was memorial day weekend. Yeah. The roach motel wanted over a hundred bucks to stay in their worst room. Yeah, right. So I was going to go on back to her place - 2 hours away. Well, she got on the net on her phone, and found a hotel that had decent rates along our route. So we stopped there and crashed for the night. She is so good, looking out for us, and making things happen - damn, I wish my morals and values and ethics were different, I want her to come live with me so bad.....I can't imagine a better live-in! LOL, sorry, I usually don't think like that. I dunno, we said a lot of things this weekend, and we did a lot of things this weekend that make me think that she really wants to be with me, eventhough she goes and does (as I do.) It hurts me to know that she goes out and dances with other guys, but like I said, I can't talk, I go out too. I just go stir crazy here in my new home, I don't really have any friends here, and I get so lonely. I have gone from having 2 roomies and a girlfriend to living alone and not having any friends here. Everyone likes me and stuff...and a few have even tried to hook me up with their friends, eventhough I blew that off realy quick. I just miss having someone I know - I need some foks to hang out with. I miss having that contact with people. Anyhow, we got up this morning and headed back for home. We had lunch in Victoria, and I took her home. I don't know when I will see her or her folks again, and that's kinda sad. I love her family, and I think they think that I'm an okay guy. I may be able to go next weekened. I suppose I should say probably be able to go next weekend. I really don't think that my comapny is going to send me on a job yet, eventhough they are talking about it. My boss and his coordinator are saying that they want me to learn OJT - on the job training. So they are pulling me out of the training program. Kinda nice that they trust me and think that I can handle this....now I just have to prove that I am going to ba able to do it, and make it worth thier while. This also means that I'll be going back to the rigs sooner than I thought. A LOT sooner. This means that the money is going to get a lot better really soon. This also means that I won't have the time to hang out with my female friend down south. So it's good and bad. Damn, I miss that girl. Anyhow, I got back home and CRASHED!! I was so beat from going all weekend. I called and let her know that I got here okay, and she was glad. I got up a coupla hours ago, and called her, and she and her friend were out at a dancehall. I must admit that it hurt that she was going out. I almost went out and did the same, just to get my mind off of it, but decided that the sronger thing to do was to stay home like I planned and just be me - hang out, myabe have a drink, and go on to bed. I have a lot to do tomarrow. Well, we had a great weekend, good times. It was so good to be where I was. I miss having my old g/f around, and I'm really lonely in my new home, but if this is the worst thing that ever happens to me, then I've got it licked. I hope that things work out. It's all good. Ya'll take care, and God bless!!