So last night Dawn and I went down our list of lovers. She's slept with a lot of guys. I've still had more girls, but damn!! She went through that many guys in like 2.5 years. I don't see how she could know what the fuck. How can you know what you are feeling when you have run through relationships and lovers like that. How can she know if she is really in love or not? She has never had the time to spend wiht one person to let love and a relationship grow. Have I gotten in over my head? Is it time to turn tail and run? How do I know that she won't get tired of me and look for something different while I'm in Houston? Hell, she could do what she wants, and I'll never know. I can't believe that she went out and went to the pub with a group that she said that she wouldn't hang out with anymore, and then didn't tell me for a fucking week! I was crushed on that one. How could she forget? It's not like she goes out a lot and forgets where she went one night. She went out a couple of times while I was gone. At one location, she talked to her ex for like 30 minutes. And then the deal with the pub......She fucking lied to me.....how can she expect me to trust her? I don't know. I think there are some cracks showing, and I think if she keeps on forgetting, or turns up somewhere that she said she wasn't or ANYTHING I'm gonna have to reevaluate where this is going. It may be time to write it up as great sex, and that's it, and its time to go find someone else that really wants to love me. -----later------- OOOOOHHHHH, but that's not all folks!! She said tonight at IHOP that she remembered, but didn't want to tell me until she had a good opportunity. Her mom said not to tell at all, but she couldn't handle that. What is it going to be like when I'm 70 and she comes out and tells me about the 5 other guys she slept with while we were together? How is it going to feel then? Yeah, she told me, just like she said she would, but she never said when she'd tell me.......sound familiar? So she tells me years later, so that she dosen't hurt me...dosen't sound too good, does it? I spend a lifetime thinking that she is all in, and at the end of it, she lets me know that there were others that she loved, but sorry, I didn't want to tell you at the time. I wanted to live off of you and let you support me, cause I knew you would be a god father and a good husband, but I had other lovers on the side.....And she wonders why I don't trust!!!!